in a dream you saw a way to survive and you were full of joy

  

Recently I've been experimenting with different mediums. This collage was made  on MS Paint using photos from Tumblr, a Jenny Holzer quote, and screenshots from Submarine- which I was watching while working. 

Submarine was beautifully written and directed and was almost an endless stream of lovely sea-side shots and Alex Turner's voice. It's one of those films that are kind of like  Wes Anderson movies because they have a  self-defined genre (does that make any sense at all?) I just mean the films are so original that they don't really fall under any pre-existing set of film standards, they just create their own. guhh I'm sorry- words are very confusing. But the movie is rated R (for sexual stuff and profanity) so keep that in mind . 

 screencaps from my tumblr when I thought it nicely represented my thoughts/vibes.

themes:

pastel

blue

water/ocean

plants

light

unrest

survival

dark green

vibes:

Submarine

Blue is the Warmest Color

greenhouses

overrun gardens

King Krule 

Picasso's blue period

Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division

I did these designs a few days ago; hopefully I'll be able to take a fashion class next year and these designs will end up somewhere other than the back of m

y closet. I'm extremely confident that I'm going to look back on this in a week and want to destroy it anyway so..? I feel a little weird because the designs are a little too simple for clothes I could actually see myself wearing, but maybe it's because I was drawing with the fact that I have no sewing experience on my mind.

gif of my thoughts throughout the designing process

Journal page feat. badly-drawn little collage-comic

blue sketches

I'm not really sure if I like any of my art/writing or if I'm just disillusioned that it's good until I create something better- at which point I'll realize how terrible it is. Maybe that's just a sign that my art is slowly getting better- which is good. 

I don't know, what do you think? Do you have any advice for artist's block or whatever it's called when you hate everything you make?

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kanyinsola

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I don't know what to call it

What's up my peeps (Look! I'm using popular teenage slang. Am I part of the club now?)

(I wrote this post a while ago, but it got lost in my web of draft posts so...)

Today was a hectic mix of spending hours on the interwebs obsessively stalking blogs that are better than mine in an attempt to feed off their ability to blog effortlessly and get inspiration, listening to Hole, cleaning the house, finding glitter in random places after doing a crafty thing with glitter a few days ago, and doing some more crafty things.

t-shirt-library volunteer, skirt-childhood, pins -DIY

Once again, I apologize for the disgusting photo quality of these.

 I made this moodboard because I really wanted a physical representation of some of the vibes I've been feeling*on the internet.

clockwise from top left: glitter lipgloss holder in the shape of a jewel, rock colored blue with chalk, sleeping mask, barbie hair brush, kitschy hair things, girl's book of glamour: guide to being a goddess.

Old sewing manual from the 1950s, Shirley Temple double feature CD, weird party favor mini-game shaped like a bunny (I don't know what it's called)

Two plastic easter egg halves, barbie mini-purse, nail file, Lizzy the lizard, picture printed from somewhere on the internet and then made into a psuedo-polaroid by moi, (I am truly sorry that this can't be sourced correctly, darn you Internet! Just kidding, I love you. If you know where this is from, let me know.) .

The shining gem of this moodboard, my very own 90s Barbie Sing-A-Long Karaoke set. I kind of feel bad that I never use it anymore because it's just so cool.

Coasting along this sudden wave of creativity, I did this page in my journal kind of centered around "Doll Parts" by Hole.

(click through for a bigger picture)

It's weird because there was a huge disconnect between the outfit I wore and the vibes I was getting from the journal collage and the moodboard. But maybe later I'll wear something a little more along the lines of the whole sickly sweet-pastel-ness.

*Seriously Kanyinsola, "feeling vibes"? What are you, a middle-aged hippie? Nothing against middle-aged hippies though, you guys are pretty cool.

Bye bye,
K