Sunday, October 12, 2014

blue canary in the outlet by the light switch

I'm doing a lot of independent work this year and it's letting me grow and work at my own pace, which is nice because it gives me just enough time to think about everything. I still don't get home on time to take pictures of my outfits before the sun sets, so I've been postponing writing something until I had a chance to do that, but I think I'll just go ahead and do this anyway.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about 'nature theory'- like the idea that because you as a human are part of nature and the world as a whole, and "whether or not it is clear to you, the universe is unfolding as it should". I had a really nice September because everything felt connected. This isn't the best example but it's the only one I can remember: when I read ''for colored girls who have considered suicide" and there was an entire poem about Toussaint L'Overture in it and then I learned about him in History- or when I was was studying Carolignian England and then I found an essay about feminism in the Carolignian era while doing research for a biology project. Those sound like incredibly mundane events- but at the time it felt kind of electrical- like everything was coming together and I was putting together some sort of puzzle about my life. 

I think nature theory has a lot to do with self love/acceptance and finding a balance between giving yourself power over your life and accepting the fact that you have no power to stop life from happening to you. The pictures do a better job at explaining it than I can- so...



©Nadine Ijewere
Set- Alice Andrews, Madeline Uggi
Model- Ayesha McMahon

this is also perfect 


Moki Mioke (b. 1982, Brilon, Germany) - Untitled from How To Disappear series, 2008     Paintings: Acrylics on Canvas


More like this & beyond

into the trees / rookie mag


Juan Aballe

"Cocoon" Vogue Deutsch, September 2013


photos, top to bottom:
1+2- FKA Twigs by Charlie Engman for The Fader // 3- Ayesha McMahon by Nadine Ijewere // 4- Dangerous Angels by Alyssa Yohanna for Rookie // 5-- Quote via; Background photo via // 6- Untitled from How to Disappear by Moki Mioke // 7- Commes Des Garcons SS 1995 ad // 8- Into The Trees by Rose Lichter-Marck for Rookie // 10-11  Stoker (2013) // 12- by Juan Abelle // 13Cocoon for Vogue Deutsch (September 2013) // 14- Thinking About Death (1907) by Frida Kahlo // 15- Background via



  1. love this! you have such a readable writing style :) xx

    1. thank you so much- when i read my stuff all i can think of is how disjointed it seems, so this was really nice to see! x

  2. Reading from Toronto. I love your blog :) I get so excited when you post!

  3. Ahh this really spoke to me: "I think nature theory has a lot to do with self love/acceptance and finding a balance between giving yourself power over your life and accepting the fact that you have no power to stop life from happening to you."

    I've watched the film adaptation of For Colored Girls and it is so amazingly gritty. Macy Gray and Whoopie Goldberg did phenomenally well. Maybe I will read the book after i finish reading Franny and Zooey by J.D. Salinger. This post (esp the FKA Twigs pic) reminds me of grtheaduation flowers that ive kept beside my windowsill for months even when they dried up and died because in my opinion they looked more scary and pretty that way. (somebody threw them out this month though *sigh* ) have you seen the comme des garcon s/s 15 collection? My mind keeps going back to it these days. Many of the designs remind me of human hearts or disfigured flowers and just the thought of love and life and how the thoughts of the latter effects humans chemically within ourselves. Like the beating of a human heart when they think or see someone they like or just when they genuinely become anxious. i dunno im rambling right now.


    1. *graduation not *grtheaduation (sounds like a groundhog's graduation or a gryffindor graduation) ughh i might as well have my epitaph written in typos. "Resp in Peace" this is just too much lol

    2. The film adaptation of that book was so good oh my goshhh. i agree that flowers usually look way cooler when they're dried up, i've looked at the collection a few times but i'm really waiting to sit down and stare and think about all of it for a long time so i can see the patterns and themes and at least some of the cool stuff going on in Rei Kawakubo's head- but everything you said sounds really interesting, and i'd never even thought about love and chemicals like that before. x Resp in peace <3 x

  4. This is really interesting... I think I can get what you say about September, even if my September has been a little different this year. I'm happy that you like what you do. That is the important things.
    Have a lovely week ^_^


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